Thoughts On My Cousin

[Unchained]

As many of you know, my cousin is at HVRC on life-support. We were raised as brothers. He is 26, and has a 3-year old son. Like me, he has battled addiction, and he was just getting his life turned around when a terrible tree-cutting accident occurred. I sent a Myspace bulletin in response to one my brother sent that I feel the need in my heart to share with my friends on here. I try not to let the personal side come out much, so it takes a bit of courage for me to do this. I do this in the hopes that you all will not take youth for granted. Our next breath is not guaranteed. Tell/SHOW the ones that you love what they mean to you please









My Thoughts On My Cousin
Body: I know that we have to accept God's will. I know that God has the plan. He is all-knowing. I also know that he is indeed the greatest physician, and a miracle is in order, and if he chooses it so, it will be. I have a hard time dealing with the fact that just now Shane has finally turned his life around, and now this on one hand. On the other hand, I am rejoicing in the knowledge that if God does need to take him to be his son Isiah's guardian angel, that our master gave him the time to meet him with a clear conscious, and the peace,love,and joy that comes with knowing Christ. I know that my cousin will be at the father's table and walking in paradise with my dad and papaw (I am working hard to get myself right so I can too). I am selfish. I do not/am not ready to say goodbye. I pray for that miracle because I want to get to know my "new" cousin, but if it's his will, then I will indeed know him again. It will just be a matter of time. Our family has been stung by tragedy too many times. I know what it is like to lose a dad way too young. I refuse to give up hope, but although it will kill me if God takes him, I will accept his will. I will rejoice in the knowledge that the words below give me:

revelation 21:3,4

3. And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the tabernacle of God [is] with men, and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, [and be] their God. 4. And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

[the_alienist]

God will give you strength. I know that I can't fully understand what you are experiencing now, but thanks for sharing that. I think that a lot of times we think that we have to accept gladly the things that God shows us but in reality it is human and normal to feel resentment and even anger at God's decisions. The best thing is to be honest and tell him that you feel that way and ask for a resolution. My prayers are with you.

[Unchained]

God has been good to us as well. We have to remember that. Many days and nights he has seen me walk out of a very dangerous place and come home to my loved ones. My brothers also work in a very dangerous profession, and he has seen them through. I know that he will not give us more than we can handle, that if we lean on him, he will strengthen us. I am very thankful for the blessings he has bestowed on me: 2 healthy sons who are my pride and joy, a wonderful lady to spend the rest of my days with, a good job (a brutal one, but a good one)...etc. Knowing all of this will not take away the pain and the tears, but it will give us the strength to deal with this (no matter the outcome)